Setting up Della’s new telescope, attending the family Dentist Appointment and soul-searching with Wiggly over getting her to give up her job and house to move in with me when I would miss my family
I had promised Della that I would go back and set up her new telescope and, as I was also going to join them for our twice-yearly family dental appointment, this was a good day to do it.
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I was first awake early on a beautifully sunny day and laid with Wiggly for a half hour in a nicely affectionate session.
I love her and she is quite the greatest partner with her company, intelligence, lovemaking and cooking but then I have my family and will miss them terribly if I make the clean break.
I was also explaining to her yesterday that I miss my family the more for her being at work and at meetings with me left on my own. But then, if she gave up work and her own house, that would be a huge commitment for both of us and fraught with difficulty if anything went wrong.
She toyed with the idea of phoning in sick and staying at home with me, but did not really consider this seriously anyway and so when I explained I had arrangements for the day, she went to work in a nice cool outfit of skirt with suspenders and stockings underneath.
Once she had gone, I walked Sam and intended to do some work on my computer journal but then, when I telephoned home, I found that Della had already broken up from school and was keen, with Debbie, for me to go over and help set up the telescope.
I loaded up Sam, my computer and briefcase and then drove over to The Hayling View to do just that. This done, I cadged lunch with Diana who was recovering from her leg operation but looking depressed.
When I went to see her in the lounge to ask about being around and seeing the girls next week, she said that was not possible, her reason being as usual that she finds my visits too upsetting as she still loves me.
I rushed around, doing as many chores as I could in the small time she had left me until it was time to rush over to the Dentist. Daniel eventually arrived and we sent him in first and he got a telling-odd for not cleaning his teeth properly with floss.
I then went next and got the same message but then Diana and the three girls got a clean bill of health. I bought some floss and a new toothbrush on the strength of all this.
As I drove back, the tears were rolling down my cheeks at the thought of me not seeing the girls with them going away for the summer. I left Diana speechless as I choked back my emotion and drove back to Montagu Street and sat there for a while before updating this days journal.
Out with Sam after, still tired and upset, and then Wiggly came home and we opted to go to the Business Forum together. The subject was about St Neots & Eynesbury Conservation Areas which would have interested me but I then had a crisis as I lost my wallet.
Wiggly had moved my things around in a huff and this, combined with me still being upset, meant that I was disoriented and it was only after I had to let her go out on her own that I realised I had left my wallet in the car when fumbling for a handkerchief earlier.
When she got back, she made a nice meal for us and, after we had ate this, I had my serious chat with her. I told her about my problems in seeing the children and with being sad when she was not there to take my mind off things.
Then it would not be good to get her to give up her job and house to move in with me as this would make her more vulnerable when I was not sure. In truth I could see no way round my problems which seemed impossible to resolve without somebody getting hurt.
I asked her what she would have done without me and she said that would have found somebody as she always does and this relieved me a little for by now I had decided that I would have to stop seeing her and go back to Diana and the girls.
It was just about bed time and we then turned in for the night.